doubting thomas (morning & evening prayers)

(The following prayers are excerpted from an upcoming collaborative project led by Brennen Daniels and featuring words by him, Emily Steffen and myself, Wrestle Collective (vol 1 // help our unbelief). Get your copy here, and follow along on Instagram for updates!)

didymus (morning prayer)
John 20:25-29

Others have seen You,

but my wound is too deep
for them to mend it with their words.

I need to hold You in my arms,
I need to touch the broken form of You
and, physically, for myself,
know the Word is wounded too.

God help my unbelief,
but some of us
need more.

reach into me (evening prayer)
John 20:26-29

O Palpable, Present One,
what consolation is this,
that even
(especially)
in my faithlessness,
You meet me?

It would be a terrible thing
to stop doubting
if it meant I couldn’t reach into Your side
and touch Your heart.

My Lord and My God,
embrace me now.
Make my doubt, faith, and my faith, sight.