palm sunday, ’19

I was reading about a church
that did away with the Palm Sunday processional this year
for clarity’s sake,
to add weight to the final days of Christ,
when my wife asked me to take out the trash.

The bag was overflowing
with cast-offs, coffee grounds,
and trampled palm branches
from the morning’s service.
I tied it up
and took it out.

On the cross-section of lawn
parallel to the bins,
the wind was whipping
up water to meet me, spackling
my face with pellets.
Two days back
it was sixty-five and sunny.
A false spring, they say,
because now, at just above freezing,
Winter was lashing out
one last time (for good measure),
as if we hadn’t been beaten down enough.

But after I discarded my burden
and turned again homeward,
the wind leaped upon me like a hound,
greeting me with force
and the wet-dog scent
of what was to come,
a power beyond winter
licking the bones of the earth clean
and growling in play
as it shook us all.

I recalled
Bartimaeus making a scene,
Zaccheus scuttling from the tree,
the riot of palms and coats
amid shrieking, grimy children —
that joy, of all things, doesn’t require
clarity of theology,
but only faithful welcome
and a bit of clumsy glee.

The child in the front row
whacking his friend with palm fronds
knows more of Christ
than the grumpy seminarian
wielding Grudem in the back.

I suppose even the stones know more,
crying out as they do.

joy (four poems)

i. nestling

I woke today
to scrabbling in the nest,
an irresistible urge
to leap.
In looking past the edge
of all I knew
I saw a vast expanse,
alive and impossible,
and in taking a lungful of it
I knew that
embracing air
was all it would take.

So I woke to the world,
I woke to the sky,
and I took it as it stood:
empty and full.
In climbing to its back
I spread my wings
and met the ground
violently,
like an old friend.

And I knew I could
never walk again.

ii. albatross

The battered beams below
frame fathoms of color, and I am
as one who paints – immersed
in another world. The horizons
spread like boundary lines
of pleasant places,
pleasant all the more
for the freedom to stay within them,
and I journey,
awash in aquamarine.

Paint me an ocean
of far-off hope, brimming
with white-caps,
ringed ‘round about by
luminescent creatures,
an end to the longing.

The current lunges
sleek beneath me, and I am
as one who fights – forgetful
of another world. I taste salt
filming like blood, the scent of
quickening metal,
quickening all the more
for the unknown dangers below,
and I am lifted,
awash with fear and fire within.

Guide me by little lights
above and below, dimming
only when consumed
by brighter joys. Set me
upon the wind,
that I may end.

iii. snowbird

If not for
seed flung aside
by raucous jays,
the winter
would be lean.

If not for
vibrant plumage
that draws the gaze,
the talons
would be keen.

Let me be
small and brown
and content
with thistledown.

iv. blackbird

It’s always spring
when I hear it – feathers in the wind,
the hollow-boned chirrup
of the red-winged blackbirds.

They perch
perpendicular
upon the weathered posts,
old boundary spikes
at the edge of the next field,
naked of wire and lonely
as a wintered heart.
They perch there,
like petals pinned to bracken,
a thicket of red –
and they sing.

I don’t remember the song
until I hear it, but I think
the lonely thorns
can’t help but
love the rose.
And I, a passing soul,
remember things I’d forgotten
and go forth
rejoicing
with the blackbirds.